New beginnings

Well I knew it had to come to an end eventually...my tenure as a stay-at-home mom has drawn to a close...at least for the immediate future as I had my first day at work yesterday. I am having so many mixed emotions about the whole thing, and much to my surprise, Mr. F admitted to having mixed emotions too. I think he's enjoyed being spoiled with having dinner ready every night for the past 3/4 of a year. Don't get me wrong, I'm so grateful to have a job with the most amazing benefits package you can dream of. I'm even typing this post on my work issued lap top that we are allowed/encouraged to take home for personal use! Holy Cow! There are so many pros and cons to me working full time so I'm just going to make a list:

Pros
1. extra income to pay my exorbitant student loans...ughhh
2. adult interaction! wahoo!!
3. some intellectual engagement other than reading My Car ad naseum
4. doing something for just me
5. cutting down on utility bills by not being home to run ac units

Cons
1. Little man in day care...at times for 11 hrs a day depending on Dr. F's schedule (mine wont change and the trains schedule means I have to leave extra early)
2. Feeling so cramped for time at the end of each day when the few hours at home are spent preparing for the next day (did I mention we arent totally settled in our house? I mean thank goodness for the basement cause that's where EVERYTHING is right now)
3. Although I am sure daycare is a good one (we looked at ALOT), its still someone else taking care of my baby. Let the mommy guilt begin. I just feel like I wont be able to do it all from keeping the kind of home I want to giving Aidan lots of attention....alas, the plight of the working mother.

Finally I know this isnt the most cheerful post so I'll end on a high note. It may not be the beach, but this $10 blow up Target pool was such a hit. This kid has water in his veins for sure!