tomorrow

Tomorrow is my surgery and I'm so nervous. I've never had real surgery before (wisdom teeth don't count)... I mean, I've never been under general anesthesia so that is scary. I'm willingly allowing someone to cut open my neck. UGHHH. I very well might loose my entire thyroid tomorrow and be on meds for the rest of my life. My metabolism might be gone. Yeah, that will suck. I am terrified that I wont wake up from the anesthesia,(I know I know, soooo unlikely). I'm terrified they're going to cut the wrong thing (my surgeon has done well over 1000 of these...and does a few every week). I'm not afraid of the recovery process or the pain. I'm just afraid of the surgery itself.

However, I'm so excited that we are attacking this head on and doing something about it. I'm excited that as soon as my meds are stabilized, we can begin trying to get pregnant! YESSSS. I'm excited that I wont constantly feel like I have a lump in my throat (it feels like my tonsils are permanently swollen). And I'm soooo excited that I'll get a mini-vacation from work where I do nothing by park my rear on the couch and watch movies. Yeah, I'm ready for that.

Anyway, thanks for your prayers and well wishes. See you on the other side!